She

She is my song, she is my paint
She’s on a dry day, rain
She is my pride in between shame
She’s on dark days, a bright flame

She in weakness, is my pillar
For strength she’s my shoulder
With time we are growing older
Same time a bit closer I hold her

She’s the feeling that burns inside
Like a hurricane you so like
The love on which life is defined
With pride cause she’s called mine

She’s my sleep, the kind with dreams
Like the early morning sun beams
For her the heart always skips beat
All I need is ‘her’ on repeat

Bottle of Procaine

Can you make this feeling die inside
There’s a bitter heartache in my head
Like a choked tear held in my mind
Waiting like a river to out spread

Can you make me whole again
Feed me a new sensation I haven’t felt before
Let on lies my hope regain
As I move alone on the dance floor

I need a new food for my exploding brain
Hey waiter do you hear me right
Give me a bottle of your finest procaine
I’ll sip it up like age old wine

Finally something to make the pain subside
Sleep will come before it is night
Once it wears of I’ll be back in plight
Till then forget the world and its fight

The infinite wish

Oh how I wish, wish the rains where empowered
Empowered to cleanse much more with its showers
Showers that could wash away tormenting pain
Pain that rises from the emptiness within

Within a frailed heart that aches for her affection
Affection that was born out of uncertain friction
Friction that swelled into a volatile fire
Fire untamable burned away all set desire

Desire to share the same air in a room
Room that would see us together till tomb
Tomb which states’ together always’
Always was split apart into separate ways

Ways that are set by predestined fate
Fate, which with my whole heart I hate
Hate is a tough emotion that comes easy with time
Time never stood by me ever through this climb

Climb feels like a major fall in your absence
Absence that could make hell out of heavens
Heavens that are made complete in your presence
Presence that makes life worth living every second

Only if our stars would align together like our hearts

On the celestial map we were secluded by light years 
With time smoldering up ourselves in tears 
Requesting the universe to grant rule over others 
To have on puppet strings gravity and its powers 

Muster all my courage and sling shot towards her 
An imperceptible force steals the right I was never conferred
Confined to a path pre-determined by so called well-wishers  
Oblivious to the pain inflicted by the distance of a thousand light years

Amidst the agony of separation, there’s resolute persistence
Between the scars and the smiles, the truth and the lies
Among the heartaches there lies moments of realization 
This is all I want, fortified every day in new conviction  

To forsake this would be effortless, painless and obvious
Some hardships are worth the happiness of that one audience 
Through this strive, conviction will be my shooting star
Only if our stars would align together like our hearts 

Wait for the nights

I wait, Wait for the nights
For the darkness, for the lack of lights
For the void, for a wordless silence
An escape from the words of violence

In darkness you can’t see
Tears, pain or agony
In silence you can’t hear
Cries, hurt or suppressed fear

So let the sun drown in the ocean
For the evening matches my emotion
So like the stars hidden in the dark
At nightfall on a new journey embark

Cradle to the Grave

Born naked into an unknown world
To manmade insecurities I hold
Decisions of mine someone else made
Though none to understand my inner crusade
For that feeling of ‘being unchained’ I crave
There’s only one trip from the cradle to the grave
So I’ll take the risk and build a palace out of this cave

Heart of Darkness

You pushed it far, left a permanent scar
As I lie in the corner, with a broken armor
Trembling in hate, altering my own fate
Burry the present, to face the future unpleasant

At least for a second, about me you could reckon
Or else why, would you say good bye
Pour water on my lamp; snuff out the light with damp
Backstab on the promises, quieten those weak voices

I struck with blindness, then bore a heart of darkness
That crucified its kindness and amplified madness
You killed its brightness, with your words sharpness
It’s now soaked with sadness, without any weakness

I shall return with vengeance, not seeking repentance
Silent treatment, is your biggest punishment
Wound still sore, above your presence I’ll soar
Be who I am, not your dictated scam

Stay high on a cave, better be my own slave
Take the darkness inside and comfortably confide
Gone too far this time, blaming me for your crime
Not coming back, I’m reset to a new track

So snuff out the light, kill the hope tonight

You saw my pain, bleeding through my vein
As my soul lay dead, making the floor its bed
The fight you win, as I shrivel within
And you were gone, left me alone

Close my eyes and shut your lies
Start with the blade, cut my heart let it fade
Because all was fake, worth a fairy tale
So snuff out the light, kill the hope tonight

I’ll go away, and time will decay
Drown in my tears, for those lost years
Punch a few holes in my ego walls
Bruise my hands, as anger demands

As time pass, it’s now you see these cracks in the glass
Was I not before perfect, that now you reject
You say I have changed and now I am estranged
Stone is my heart, yet brittle enough to break apart

So I pack my bags, and climb to the heights
Soon I’ll disappear, to where i am not clear
I won’t defend, because you won’t bend
This will never mend, so goodbye till then